She went quietly...

I heard this one song by Charlie Winston, the tittle's "She Went Quietly". It's a nice song and for me, I can reflect to this song really well. Although she's surrounding by her friends and family, she cannot help feeling depressed, sad. Is it about work, study or just life.. We tend to face some problems and maybe it ended not so great. And when things started to pile up, we just need to do something to let it out. In this song, the women choose to go away without telling her family or friends. You can said she's running away, but for her that's what she needs to do, run.

I had the same phase too.. Depressed over things in life that I cannot control. I have some thought about running away. Maybe get a new life away from here. But my family won't let me alone, won't let me go. At first I hate it, but I know if they don't do that maybe now I'm in a wrong path, destroy myself.

Because life is unpredictable, at first it's sweet but then it'll turn sour..

We cannot predict what comes next, all we can do is live our life...

How to Cope with Grief and Loss (of your loved ones)

You cannot prepared for what's coming to you or to your loved ones. Death is not something you can get away from it. Maybe you have toughen your heart, but when it happened, you just cry. Because when there's life, there's also death. You can celebrate life and grief for death.

You will blank for some reason, you cannot think what to do or say. Because some grief may come harder than the others. Grief for your dad or mom, your granny or your friend. You just have to deal with it.

First, it's okay to cry. Don't act your the tough ones. When someone dies, of course it's sad. Maybe you don't wanna cry in front of people. Then find some place to cry. Maybe the place you have memories of the person who die. 

Second, pray for the person who die. It's relaxing to pray and knowing that even after death you can still care for her/him. 

Third, get closer to friends or family. Because when the person who die is family member, it's soothing to have your family around you. It's the same if it's your friends. You can share memories, have a good laugh, and remember that you're not alone.

Fourth, focus on what's important. Like me, my dad had passed away just recently. It feels like a dream. After his death, I organized my life better. I see what is important in my life, what I need to do.

Fifth, get busy. It works every time I had bad things happened in my life. It's not good thing to do but it can ease my pain. Still you have to talk to somebody.

I hope that you can deal with your grief, your loss. I know it's hard when you see their picture, when you suddenly remember a memory about them. It's sad. You can be helped to feel sad at that time like that. But please don't feel that your life is over. There's people who deal with grief too. Like in my case, my mom, my sister, my aunts, and my uncles. We get together for 2-3 days, deal with our grief. We talked, laughed, and spent time together. It helps alot.

I know I am not a saint or someone that wise. But I have felt grief too. I hope you don't push people who love you and care about you. Because maybe you don't know that they deal with grief too. So take care of yourself and people around you. Thank you for reading this. It means alot. Thank you :)

What I Learned in College (Part 2)

This is the continuation from the last article, What I Learned in College (Part 1). I already give 7 things I learned in college. But that's not all!! Here's some things to complete the list :)

1. Exercise. If you think you can be slim, healthy and fit in college without some exercise. Boy, you're so wrong. I don't care if you are busy, just do 30 minutes exercise for 3-4 times a week. It helps you fit in college :)
2. Learning. If you have things to say, just say it. It's your own view and opinion. And everybody can speak out. It's not a crime. If you're wrong, take it as a personal learning. It's college, it's preparation before going to work life/ real life. It's ok to be wrong. 
3. You are not perfect, but you're unique. When you go to college, you can find some interesting people. They are from all around the countries even from other countries. That doesn't make you plain and not unique. Don't be shy and try to be friend with some amazing people. Don't forget, you're not perfect. If you get down, and look at your friends happy with their success. Remember, you're time to shine will come sooner or later. :)
4. Success will come. Just prepare for it..
5. YOLO. Enjoy your life. Take some risk. Look at some hobby. Do everything. Don't leave any regret.. You cannot turn back time. So just enjoy and have some fun. If you fall, just back up and keep moving forward.
6. Happy and grateful. Be happy in your college year. So when you graduate, you can look back and smile to the fun, happy, amazing adventure in college. Also try to be grateful for what you have. You don't know when your time is up. But you have to be grateful for each breath that you take, that you are still alive and be successful
7. Spend you time wisely. You can have fun and do crazy stuff but you have to be responsible because you're a student with projects and tasks. That's why you need to organize better..

Ahh.. I am so sleepy. Thanks for reading this article. Thank :)

What I Learned in College (Part 1)

I just read The 16 Most Important Lessons I Learned In College and I start thinking, within this past 4 years what did I learn in my College, Bogor Agricultural University. I'm still a computer science student and now working hard to graduate this year. Wish me luck. ^^

Anyway, I learned so much during my 4 years in college. Met some interesting friend and lecturer. It's all fun and exciting. In the article, she said that often we get a job in something totally unrelated with our study. It's true. Sometimes what we study is not what we love, it's just because our parents kinda force us (but it's for our own good) We only have to work hard and survive the college.

Now I will write down what I think based on the article..

1. Food!! We need so much food and snacks. After a long day, you go back to dorm or apartment, the only thing keep you sane is food. Believe me, when you're exhausted, you probably too lazy to go out. That's why you need food in your room :)
2. Fast food delivery. When you run out food, just dial for delivery. You don't have to cook, that's the best part. It's great if it's 24 hours. Right? hahahhaha..
3. Appearance. The article is right, appearance is important in certain time. You don't have to worry about it all the time. Example, for class just look presentable and clean. You don't need dress to impress for class, thou it's different if you have crush on someone :)
4. Keep in touch is hard. I fear that when I graduate, I won't be friend again with some of my friend in college. But I know it'll be the same as senior high to college, and junior high to senior high. You cannot be perfect all the time. It's the same as friendship, maybe you cannot be as close as before but you are still friend. Just need some work to keep the friendship but it's worth it.
5. Internet is entertaining. In my mayor, we love internet. When we stuck in some project, some homework, you can find the solution on internet. Boys love online game too. Not all of them. ^^
6. He/she always having fun. Maybe you are wondering, my friend is in different mayor and he/she looks like having fun all the time. He/she hang out every night. Not true guys!! Even it look like that, you probably don't know that they have a ton of homework, full schedule all week. The different is your schedule, maybe he/she have test when you have day off. It's college not senior high. You don't get the same schedule guys..
7. Google Translate and spell-checked are awesome. True, it saves me all the time. I'm an Indonesian. My main language is not English so I truly saved by Google Translate and spell-checked too ^^

Well, I will continue the article tomorrow. I have work to do. See you guys :)

you're on your own in the real world :3

Do you guys know? The title comes from a song. Paramore - Ain't It Fun !!

Even the Music Video is so much fun!! You should check this out,

Paramore - Ain't It Fun

Ain’t It Fun is the sixth track on Paramore’s fourth, self-titled, album. Hayley wrote on the band’s LiveJournal that the song is a message to anyone who sometimes forgets that he or she isn't the center of the universe, including herself. The song includes a gospel choir and some seriously funky bass. Hayley has said this song is the closest any Paramore track has been to her work with The Factory, a funk cover band she and Jeremy Davis were in prior to the formation of Paramore. (source: RapGenius)

Yeah, sometimes we feel that we are matters, while others don't. We are so big in our head, we forget that what we think and what actually happen can be different. You cannot predict future. You cannot undo the past. We can only pray to God  that everything will be fine and what will happen, it just happen.

You cannot be the center of the universe. Sometimes I do feel, what I want, my idea, is all that matter. It's wrong. But that us, human. We do feel like that. It's okay until it's hurting your friends and family, even yourself. When it happens just take a deep breath and relax. Try to put yourself in someone shoes.

It's okay until it's unbearable... and it ain't fun!!

Is that a dinosaur fossil? - Google celebrates Mary Anning birthday

It's fossil!!
I just notice the rocks form "Google" without the L. hahaha..
It's cute :3
Too bad it doesn't move..

Today, Google celebrates Mary Ann birthday, she's a fossil hunter. That's why the doodle is a fossil. You probably wondering, who is Mary Ann? What makes her special?

In IBN article,

Mary Anning was a fossil-collecting woman in the 19th century whose discoveries challenged the predominant thinking of her era. She was working class and didn't start out as a scientist but she was collecting fossils to sell them to make a living and fell into this scientific discovery. 

Anning was credited with the discovery of several dinosaur specimens that helped in the early development of palaeontology. It is said that Anning spent a year extracting the dinosaur fossil from 205 million-year-old Blue Lias cliffs on the beach.

What? She is amazing!!

She's not a scientist but she discovered fossil. In Wikipedia, they said she couldn't participate in scientist community. Well, it's probably hard for a woman. In the past, they couldn't have a bright career, had to be at home. Mary Ann wasn't from a rich family. She struggle financially and she did not always receive full credit for her scientific contributions. Indeed, she wrote in a letter: "The world has used me so unkindly, I fear it has made me suspicious of everyone."

She's born in 21 May 1799 and died at age 47. The cause of death was breast cancer. It had to be hard and painful. I imagined live on 18th - 19th century and have a breast cancer without a cure. Maybe there's some medical treatment. But it probably not as advance as today.

Her work and dedication make realize, you can do everything, even you're a woman. 

Note:
Source in this post come from Wikipedia

Repost? Is it okay?

Today, I had my thought filled with this question. Is reposting okay?

Internet is so much advance and people all around the world can communicate even we are far from each other. You can share info and download this and that from the internet. Are you too lazy to shop? Or you cannot find the things you're looking from? Just surf the internet and shop online. So many things we could do online..

As I mentioned, you can share info to everyone all around the world. What I am doing right now, it's sharing info to you guys :)

Today is about REPOSTING!! Okay let's gooooo....

Do you know what "repost" means?

I google it and come to definition of "repost" from this link

Repost

1. Post (a letter or parcel) for a second or further time.
2. Post (a message, link, image, etc.) to an online location, such as a blog or social media website, for a second or further time

Yes, that is correct. "Repost" is basically you post again someones previous posts. In the world of blog (sound like a fantasy land), people tends to just post back someones posts. If you just read the definition, you probably said "ohh it's okay, isn't it?"

For me, it's not. Because there're people who spend more time just to make sure what he/she post's perfect. I know them and I appreciate them. Because I own another blog in Tumblr, if you have time or curious just click this link. 

The repost-er just post an article or picture or anything and called it their own. I know there're no rules over them. It's internet and it's wild. You cannot control people who read your post. You cannot control people to not repost. Even though there's no rules, at least, you can appreciate them by linking their original post, write down the source, or in Tumblr just REBLOG it :)

Well, is it harsh? to write it in CAPS LOCK and Bold? But it's the reality, you can just click the reblog in Tumblr. write down the source. I think if you just repost it, it's like cheating. And you don't write the source of your answers right?

The bottom line is..

Please do not repost, just reblog or you can write down the source. If you want to be appreciate by others, start by respect and value people work and effort.

I cannot change what people think. They might hate this article and consider it boring, waste of time. Well, sorry guys, you can stop reading when you see the title. Why you read it, if you don't want to. That's silly.

To end this article, there're few words from one of my friend in Tumblr, elsie. Her posts got a lot of repost (not reblog).

What you are doing is reposting when you should be reblogging. When you repost, you are uploading someone else’s work onto your tumblr as your own, and this is wrong. So please take down all the reposts and just reblog from the original source. Thanks, it would be much appreciated. Also, changing your user name doesn’t mean it’s okay.

 Thank you and enjoy the rest of the day. See you ^^

Another celebration by Google - Happy Birthday Dorothy Hodgkin

Google doodle to celebrates Dorothy Hodgkin's birthday

Today, Google celebrates the birthday of Dorothy Hodgkin, a British chemistry. Do you wonder who is Dorothy? If you look on Wikipedia,

Dorothy Mary Hodgkin, (12 May 1910 – 29 July 1994), was a British chemist, credited with the development of protein crystallography. She advanced the technique of X-ray crystallography, a method used to determine the three-dimensional structures of bio-molecules. Among her most influential discoveries are the confirmation of the structure of penicillin that Ernst Boris Chain and Edward Abrahamhad previously surmised, and then the structure of vitamin B12, for which she was awarded the Nobel Prize in Chemistry. She was the third woman to win the prestigious Nobel Prize in Chemistry.

 When I searched more, I found this,

The Nobel Prize in Chemistry 1964 was awarded to Dorothy Crowfoot Hodgkin "for her determinations by X-ray techniques of the structures of important biochemical substances".

Every past discoveries and researches were the foundation of our life now. The science and technology grow because we constantly questioning things. Like a child, a curious child who wants to learn. And that is what Dorothy did. She said,

I became captivated by the edifices chemists had raised through experiment and imagination — but still I had a lurking question. Would it not be better if one could really 'see' whether molecules as complicated as the sterols, or strychnine were just as experiment suggested?

That's it for today. Thanks for reading this. See you  :)

The Amazing Spider-Man 2: Rise of Electro Movie Review (with Inspiring Quotes)

This is my first movie/film review.. if my review is BLEH (not good) please leave a comment/critics. I am still practicing my writing skill.. ^^

The Amazing Spider-Man 2: Rise of Electro picture from IMBd

I just noticed when I was searching the poster of it, it's upside-down angle right.. hahaha
Okay let's move on..
I watched the film on Wed, May 7th at some local theater. There's a 3D movie for this but I chose the usual one. It's amazing well, it's AMAZING SPIDER-MAN after all.

Oh what should I speak first
First, lets talked about Gwen and Parker relationship. Since Gwen's dad died in the first movie, Parker felt so guilty because Gwen's dad told him to stay away from Gwen. But Gwen didn't like that idea at all (troublesome woman). And up until almost the end of the movie, he kinda see "the ghost" of Gwen's dad. It's creepy =__=
They broke up sometimes in the movie, but when Gwen got a scholarship in England. It's clear that they still love each other. As you can guess, they're back together just before the Electro strike again.

The villain in this movie's Max, the invincible man that has love-hate feelings for Spider-man. At first he loved Spider-man and when he became Electro, he angry a lot. Now I see the pattern -> angry -> angrier -> dangerous. Just like Hulk or Thor or Torch Man or Ghost Rider.

Finally Harry, Parker former best friend who was dying. He's the Green Goblin. His depression over the disease made him mad, now he looked like maniac. He felt betray by his best friend. After his best friend convince him it'll be impossible. (well, because the DNA for that spidey was Parker's dad DNA)

There're some humor and some "whoa" moments. Like when Parker found out his dad labs, super awesome. Time Square attack was funny. I didn't read the comic and I didn't know about the villains in Spider-man. But this villain, Electro, was so cool. It's like electricity become his blood and his body became electrical circuit. The CGI can be seen in those moment. Two thumbs up for that.

I know that we all think we're immortal, we're supposed to feel that way, we're graduating. The future is and should be bright, but, like our brief four years in high school, what makes life valuable is that it doesn't last forever, what makes it precious is that it ends. I know that now more than ever. And I say it today of all days to remind us that time is luck. So don't waste it living someone else's life, make yours count for something. Fight for what matters to you, no matter what. Because even if you fall short, what better way is there to live?

It's easy to feel hopeful on a beautiful day like today, but there will be dark days ahead of us too, and there'll be days where you feel all alone, and that's when hope is needed most. Keep it alive.

I know it feels like we’re saying goodbye, but we will carry a piece of each other into everything that we do next, to remind us of who we are, and of who we’re meant to be. I've had a great four years with you, and I’ll miss you all very much.

Those lines're from the movie. (source: Movie Quote)

The Gwen's speech described the whole movie. And it's perfect. Thanks for reading this review. See you ^^

author of our life

I just read @LoveQuotesx

I am the author of my life. Unfortunately, i'm writing in pen and i can't erase my mistakes.

And I realize that it's true. We are the author of our life! We are the one that choose not our parents, siblings and friends even strangers!! No. It's simply our choice to make. We learn how to life, how to make friends and how to love and being loved.